Friday, February 22, 2008

I didn't realize it had been so long!

What a couple of months it has been.

I finally met someone who got me over J once and for all. Now if I can just get over this guy.

We met in December right before Christmas. He'd been going to the club I go to on Thursday, but never talked to me, but we met properly at a mutual friend's X-mas party. We talked quite a bit and I thought he was pretty cute. But the next thursday I saw him with a girl and put him out of my mind.

Then came New Years. My one dance instructor (not SOG) had bought me a beautiful little-black-dress and black pumps for christmas (Spending more on an outfit that I would spend on clothes in a year) with the instructions to wear them at New Years, and to be the change I want to see for myself.
I wasn't expecting great things out of NYs as I was tagging along w/ SOG, his girlfriend, and a few other dancing friends to a party of a complete stranger. I knew a guy that was going to be there we had talked on the phone a few times, and despite standing right next to me at midnight he didn't give me a kiss, so I was kind of bummed. It didn't help that J had shown up to this party as well. Things were salvaged when new guy from the christmas party showed up and started dancing and flirting with me. He took my number and called me to have a safe drive home and over the week we were texting a bit too.

We had our first date on Jan 4th. He picked me up for coffee at 8 and we ended up talking until 12:30am. Then we played pool for a couple of hours. All in all it was a great casual first date. For the next month it was mostly flirting on the dance floor, making out at his place after watching movies on his couch and the occasional actual date out - a movie, or bowling. The whole time he would talk about things to do when it got warm out, what we would do when we had our first argument, things like that. Things that made it sound like he thought this was heading for a relationship.

The February hit and I got silence. We made plans on a monday to have a movie night at his place on Friday, and I didn't hear again from him until thursday - he couldn't make it to the club like normal. He picked me up on Friday an hour late w/ no call or anything. He stopped the movie with 1/2 hour left to help his mom w/ some airline problems. Then I had to initiate the usual make-out session. Eventually he took me home with out asking what I was doing for the rest of weekend. I let it slide until the following tuesday when I cracked. I called him up and left a message along the lines "You should be calling the girl you're supposed to be dating. How did you go from calling and texting me everyday, stopping by my apartment at 4am just so we'd get a chance to see eachother on a saturday, to absolutely nothing for days? It seems to me that if you're not contacting me then you're not thinking of me which means that we've got to talk about weather you're losing interest or what."

He called back a few hours later with "oh no, I don't want you to feel that way, what are your plans tomorrow, the next day?"

We had lunch two days after. I thought it was hunky-dory, he was making things up to me, I just had to tell him what I wanted and he'd make adjustments (he is a couple years younger than me after all). Then the bill came. He didn't pick it up, didn't pick it up and then looks at me and says "So..." which is his lead in to all questions, "what feelings are you getting from me?" The cold shoulder. And he proceeds to tell me that despite all my wonderful qualities (90% of them physical) he didn't feel for me what he should and didn't want to take me along for the ride.

I have never been so totally fleeced in all my life. This guy totally made me believe that we had something good starting and then pulled the rug out from under me in less than five seconds.

To make matters worse - I had planned a weekend to chicago for dancing with some people for Valentine's weekend. Back when New Guy and I were together I tried to get him to come along, but he had some other responsibility he couldn't get out of. As I was finalizing my ride out to Chicago the monday before I'm supposed to leave, I find out that New Guy and our mutual friend are coming after all and they're getting a ride with my ride.

Looking back on it I should have bailed on my weekend. I ended up having a miserable time and getting really sick as well. The drive to Chicago was miserable. The night before I had gone out with girlfriends and had all of 2 hours of sleep before being picked up. Then I got to ride in the back between New Guy and his friend and proceeded to not sleep at all. That night when out dancing I got to watch New Guy flirt with and pick up some girl, and listen to his friend congratulate him. Then NG and his new girl sat outside his hotel room (right next to my hotel room) for an hour talking, before leaving - presumably to her room.

Thankfully after mentioning to my ride how aweful it was having NG around, and that I was deathly ill on sunday when we left, I got to ride up front going home. But I know NG and his friend wanted to talk about the girl, but made it pretty obvious that they couldn't when I was in the car. Pointed looks in my direction and "oh, well...." trailing into silence before changing the subject.

There are a huge number of reasons why NG and I wouldn't have worked out in the long run, but I'm insensed at being rejected by him. I'm crazed over the fact that he built up my expectations only to bring them crashing down on me. I'm pissed that my weekend away, that I was looking forward to because I wasn't going to have to look at his stupid face or act like I was totally fine around him was ruined.

And now I'm stuck in the same stupid boat that I was over J. Only J at least had the decenecy to never claim that he liked me in the first place.
 
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