New way

So I went home after having an appointment to see an apartment. Which was kind of old and small, but not as old and small as I was expecting. A little more expensive than I would have like considering how old and small it is, but I'm going to look at another today.

I ended up having some whole weat pasta, another cookie, some tortilla chips, and water all between 8:30 and 9:30pm. I was a little suprised to see that I was back to goal weight -2. Of course I have a new goal weight which is the old goal weight -7. This puts me just under the middle of normal weight on a chart for my height. I think that is a fair enough goal and will put me back into the clothes (like my interview suit!) that I bought while I was doing the dance classes numerous times a week.

So I've determined this. No more restricting during the day. and instead of being OCD on my calories and fat grams, I'm going to follow a pyramid guide where by I try to eat 6 whole grains, 2 fruits, 3-5 vegs, 2 proteins, 2 dairies, and limit my fats. I'm going to make a little chart every day and mark off what I have. That way I've got some control, but I'm not obsessing about numbers. I'm going to use the tuesday/thursday evenings when I used to dance to run for 20 minutes, go to weight training on monday/wednesday, throw in an exercize video on friday or sunday, and continue my saturday dance class. Once I get to my NGW I think I'll be able to add a few more grains and an extra fruit into my chart provided I don't slow down the exercize.

With that in mind today, I had a bigger breakfast. Half of my usual ceral and soy milk, plus veggie sausage and toast. It's been a couple of hours and I'm going to break into an orange. I'll have a salad and some whole wheat pasta for lunch. Another fruit for a snack after that, and I haven't figured out dinner yet, maybe a PB&J. Something small. Then I can hopefully not want to devour my entire kitchen when I get home.

The hard part is that I don't do the food shopping. One of the reason I need to get out! I would never buy two 24-count boxes of bakery cookies (huge, gianormous, bigger-than-your-grandma-makes cookies) or a 24 count tray of bigger-than-Starbucks' double chocolate muffins. One muffin is about 450 calories. I shudder to think the fat in it. And when faced with so many of them it's easy to eat one every day, or two every day. If I had my way I'd only buy that kind of think when I really wanted it. I'd go to Mrs. Feild's and buy A cookie, or I'd go to Starbucks, or where-ever, and buy A muffin, not 48 of them! My other way of getting around them is not to bring them with me during the day. My mom usually wraps one or more up for me to put in my lunch. Today I put them back.

The other thing I'm going to add to my chart is a spot for water. I don't drink nearly enough water. It's always diet soda. Because it's sweet, zero calories, and caffinated. During the spring I did well limiting myself to soda just on the weekends. So I am going to go back to that. Two sodas a week--one on saturday and one on sunday. And one day a week I'll let myself have something I've been craving like fries, or ice-cream.

I think this is all do-able and not too drastic. It's just a matter of being obsessive about health.

On a totally unrelated topic:

J has not called in over a week. He honked at me as he was driving by and I was walking to work last friday, but nothing else. I am a little worried he thinks I'm unhappy with the whole back-seat-sex thing. I mentioned being mad that my parents weren't leaving on their regular two month summer vacation. I didn't say that it was because I wanted the house free so we could have an actual bed for a change, but it did come on the heels of some bss. But then maybe I'm just thinking too much. I'm fairly sure that guys do not analyze or read-into every word as much as I do. Hopefully he's just busy. I'd rather have back-seat-sex with J than no sex.