Friday, April 18, 2008

A year and half later

I got a call from J on Wednesday. He needed a performance partner for a last minute party the next evening. Funny thing is that B said no because of team practice, but I said yes. With the performance being at 5:15 there was plenty of time to get to practice, but for whatever reason she didn't want to do it. So I said yes.

Everything went well. I messed up a couple times, but he said not to worry. I'm really not used to dancing with him anymore. We chatted a bit afterwards. Turns out the team and SOG are working the same Cinco de Mayo show as him at an out of town casino. Before I left he said that I could call him for anything.

Hmmm...

I'm left wondering again if he's fishing for a "get together." But it wasn't until 5 minutes later that I realized it could mean that.

I'm really proud of myself for being able to keep my cool, my head, my emotions all in tact, be friendly and professional around him. I think I've made major progress.

Monday, April 14, 2008

Birthdays

I've been sitting on this for a while because it was so weird that I'm having trouble wrapping my head around it.

My birthday was last week. It fell on a good dancing night, and the team did a performance at the club. So all in all it was a really fun night. Dancing, drinking, being with friends. I had told my dance instructor about the performance, but he was supposed to be in Chicago and wasn't going to make it. Turns out that was just a ruse to make me think he wasn't coming, but really he did show up. Not only did he show up for the performance, dance with me, buy me a drink, but he also got me a birthday present. He handed it to me as he was leaving - a jewelry box. It is a very small gold/diamond (very small) necklace. My other cards and gifts I was just shoving into a bag under the coat rack, but I couldn't do that with jewelry. So I went out after him thanked him, and had him put it on me - and that's when he kissed me.

It was on the lips but no tongue and not very long. But I still don't know how to take it. Is it a old man, paternal, fraternal kiss? Or something more?

I'm supposed to go to my normal group classes tonight in an hour and I'm wigging out. We normally get a drink and a bite to eat after class, but I don't know how to be now. My plan is just to ignore that it happened and see if it anything more happens. I don't want to call him out on something he didn't see as a big deal. Then I'd feel like a total idiot. I just can't imagine him being attracted to me. I'm more than 20 years younger than him, and look at least 30 years younger than him.

Too weird.

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

I'm a moody bitch

SOG sat me down for a talk yesterday before my private lesson. Apparently he's noticed me having an attitude in front of the other girls. Part of me sees it, but on the other hand with two past exceptions I've not copped more attitude than the other girls. In fact the past two practices I haven't said anything, so I'm at a loss as to why he's bringing it up now.

It made for a crappy lesson. I had no desire to dance with him then and I have no desire to dance with him right now.
 
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